Today, after having gone through complications, then a two week stall on my weight, the numbers are headed back down. According to my own scale (since its the one I weight most on, its the one I go off of), this morning I was down to 222.2 lbs. Still not great, but certainly NOT 261.2...what a scary number. I was over 250...WOW. I am a month and a half out. My official weigh in days are Tuesdays (since I had surgery on a Tuesday), so tomorrow that number is null and void if it isn't the same. Still, I have one lbs to go until I've officially lost 40 lbs on my own scale. 40 lbs in a month and a half is no sorry feat. The blood clot aided me in this loss. However, sometimes I feel like I'm not losing fast enough. Even though when I tell people, sometimes their eyes bulge out of their heads, and they look at me as if I'm crazy. I've seen others who have had this surgery who lose 80-100 lbs in four months. WOW, in that sense, I'm way far behind, and need to get moving, lol. Others, I've seen 2 1/2 months out, and only have lost 20 lbs. Every single BODY is different. I just want to be in the group that loses a lot, but who doesn't, right?
I'm still figuring out my new diet and exercise plans. Yesterday, I went a little crazy and decided to hand scrub every tile and the grout in my dining room. Its not a small room, I had my oldest daughter following me wiping up my leftover water and soap, and my youngest one tackled the baseboards...yes, I make our Sunday cleanings a family affair. Still, my dining room looked so freaking awesome afterwards...that is until my youngest got some cranberry juice and apparently spilled it on the floor...I would have LOVED for my hard work to last longer than a few hours, but hey, I have kids, and this just comes with the territory. Still, for a brief hour or two, it looked AWESOME. =)
I also washed my couches, vacuumed, did laundry, cut coupons, and somehow managed to watch three movies, all before 11:45 last night. I get energy later in the day, I've noticed. Then I go a little nuts with the cleaning and everything. I think its my bodies way of saying, "Hey...you can work out at ANY time now." But I confess, I'm scared.
Why am I scared? Well, because, I've noticed that my incisions are hurting a little. I'm 6 weeks out from surgery, and this is totally and completely normal. It usually only happens when I'm exerting myself. My incisions are almost completely healed inside (they've been healed outside for quite sometime). So when I exert myself a bit, they do ache a little. Its normal, and natural. I mean they did pull out a big portion of my tummy out through one of my incisions. I really only have issues with two out of the six incisions. Just the bigger ones. The smaller once, I hardly even notice. I have one incision scar that is soooo tiny, I have no clue what they used it for, and it heals more everyday. I also worry that I'll put myself in pain again. People have to understand that I was in a LOT of pain the first month after my surgery. I was regretting EVERYTHING. I was white knuckled on the ER table, morphine and percocet hardly touched my pain, it was really bad. So I'm scared to take that next step, because I really don't want anymore pain if I can avoid it. The incision pain is nothing compared to the pain I felt before. Still, its like a hot burner...once you get burned, you don't ever want to go back....
Now I am going to share with you some pictures. Don't mind my undies, and what not. =P