Monday, July 16, 2012
Life at the moment has been trying. Don't get me wrong, its absolutely wonderful to have my husband home again, however, there is still a big adjustment. I've heard a lot of wives say that they just go back to normal as soon as their husband comes home. There is no adjustment period. For me, this year, that is not the case. We've been through 4 deployments, a Korea tour, and many many schools in between. This adjustment is a bit different. First being that I had surgery, so him adjusting to my way of life now is difficult for him, its also difficult for me to adjust to having another person in the household. Second, there is the issue of my blood clotting fun. I will call it fun just because its SO not, lol. I bruise very very easily, rollercoasters at Disney bruised me, things that most people wouldn't get a bruise from, bruise me. The bathtub makes my bum sore, things like that, are difficult for him to understand. We also have to think about the kids. Autumn is in her tween stage a bit, and while I've gotten used to the hormones in the past year, my husband has not. Sierra thinks she can get away with more now that Daddy is home, oh and I can't forget the house. Its a disaster! Talk about some adjustments! I'm getting used to having someone in the bed with me, I'm getting used to my husbands messes, I'm getting used to having someone else in the house period. Sometimes it can still be overwhelming. Its just a way of life with the Army and being married into it. Nobody said it was easy, but it certainly takes a certain person to deal with it.
Things will get better, this adjustment is just a bit more difficult. Especially with my NEW way of life. I still don't eat very much, and not all foods sit well with me. Paul wants me to have a glass of wine with him in the evenings sometimes, and while I love to, it just isn't feasible all the time. I've tried, and there are a lot of wines that don't sit well with my new tummy, I also drink one glass of wine and I'm down for the count, lol. I don't want to ruin any hard work I've done, I also don't want to waste my calories or carbs on a drink of all things. Its just another adjustment. He enjoys having a drink with dinner in the evenings, I would rather not. There is also the fact that my husband received an amazing gift from my Dad. His new grill. Its very impressive, I must say, and he doesn't want me cooking the main meat, so I end up doing the vegetables, he does the meat and I occasionally will make a light dessert to go with. Its been great, but my husband LOVES to cook fatty meats. He's done ribs, pulled pork, brisket, dark meat chickens, and sausages. Sounds really good, but its not so great for my tummy, or my weight loss efforts. I'm used to eating chicken breasts, cheeses, turkey breast, and fish and rarely some steak or beef. I've discussed these things with him, and he's agreed to let me choose the meats that we eat, and he will figure out a way to cook them, and for special occasions we can have those fatty meats. He's been amazing when it comes to me discussing my limitations with him, he's very understanding and is doing his best to accommodate me. I'm extremely grateful, but again, its just been another adjustment.
We just got back from our vacation to Disney World, so the adjustments are becoming more noticeable. Things will be a little easier when the girls start school again, and he is back at work normally. I can start working out again, taking care of the meals for the most part, and things won't be in disarray.
Disney World was so much fun. I absolutely LOVED it. It rained quite a bit while we were there, but it made the lines less long. We were able to ride all of the rides, enjoy a lot of shows, and all without the enormous amount of people. Still, it wasn't all fun when I was a drowned rat shivering my butt off. It was an experience I will never forget though.
In weight loss news, I'm down to 144 lbs, officially no longer overweight according to my BMI range. I'm in the NORMAL weight category. Did I ever really TRULY think that was going to happen, NO WAY! I'm very impressed, and extremely happy with my progress. I've lost 118 lbs, and my husband cannot keep his hands OFF of me, lol. I'm tiny...size 6's, and even those are a bit big at times. Dresses are a small, shirts are mediums or so...I'm still not comfortable wearing a too tight shirt or anything though. Loose works for me, and I also have excess skin, especially on my legs. My butt gets numb after I sit on it a bit, its hard to shave my pits because they are quite literally PITS, lol. My hair is still falling out, but all of that, I wouldn't trade for the world. I feel great, I can run and jump around with my kids, I can handle being in the heat, I can handle walking long ways, up and down stairs, I even park a ways away from the store, just because. I can wear normal clothes, and I'm healthy. That is the most important thing. It hasn't always been easy, far from it, actually. But its all worth it.
Here are some pics from our vacation, it was amazing!